I just read my morning devotional, and the overall message today was how no matter how much you mess up God still loves you and forgives you. Very much spot on with what I’ve been needing to hear a lot lately. Last year was not the best year of my life… Not that it was terrible either. It was very much a year where my PATIENCE was tested. After all the struggles I endured last year, the ONE WORD that came to mind for me to live by this year was HOPE.
2020 GOAL = HOPE
If you’re new to the blog, then you should know each year I do not set resolutions but choose ONE WORD to live by each year. That word is applied to everything I do in life for the year. So, after some trials and tribulations HOPE was revealed to me in my prayers. Have you ever thought about choosing ONE WORD instead of setting goals you may not accomplish?
I won’t go into detail about all of the struggles I encountered last year, but I will touch on a few. First, I put wayyyyyyy too much on my plate to try and accomplish with work. Then about 3 months into 2019 that ambition to accomplish all of these things started to dwindle. Mainly because I found out I was being cheated on in my relationship and I lost my assistant. I just was NOT feeling so good about things.
After quickly moving on from that rough patch I started to get that drive back.
However, I felt like I was drowning with work. From about April to October last year I felt like all I was doing in life was dog paddling trying to figure out which way to swim, but as soon as I started to swim in one direction a wave pushed me back.
I ended up hiring 5 assistants over the year… I know what you’re thinking… Believe me, I’m not that difficult to work with! I do have very high expectations though considering I’ve run my own company for almost 10 years. However, when someone over promises and under delivers what can you do? Luckily, I found the absolute BEST assistant in the world towards the end of the year. This is why I have HOPE that this year things will be much better at work, and I’ll have the help I need to accomplish some new ventures.
Moving on to my personal life, that started off not so hot. Although I knew that guy wasn’t the one, I was going to end up with and thankful God intervened. In 2018, my ONE WORD was TRUST. I had finally trusted God that He knew what He was doing with my singleness. So last year I needed to be PATIENT with his timing. Well, someone had come into my life again that was very unexpected. I’d known him for 13 years and he was one of my best guy friends… I’m not going to expand on that now, but I will be writing a post on it in February.
Needless to say, that did not work out…
My PATIENCE was running very thin. It’s still being tested, but I know I’ll always struggle with that. Low and behold, the very first church service of this year was about not dwelling on the past. Honestly, I could not wait for 2019 to be over. Although, on January 1st my troubles didn’t just disappear. I really needed to hear that service to know it’s okay that I didn’t do my best last year, but He still has my life in control. So once again, I knew I needed to have HOPE this year in my singleness.